I applied to Sac State today. It is seriously the best feeling being able to finally apply to CSU’s and UC’S. I cannot wait to actually get into a real school and get my BA in Social Work, and then hopefully my Masters. I plan on also applying to SJ State, Chico, Davis, and maybe 1 or 2 in Southern Cali. A part of me really wants to stay in Sacramento and continue schooling, but then there’s another part that thinks maybe I should move back home for awhile. After all, SJ State is suppose to have a really good social work program. I don’t know though. I feel like I’ve made it a long way living on my own and to move back into my parents house would be 5 steps back. Things are just so different here now. Its nothing like home. I’ve been…lonely. I miss my old friends. I miss my cousins back home. I miss my parents and my brothers. The friendships here are so different. I can’t really describe it. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends, but sometimes I think maybe it would have been better if I just stayed back in SJ. I have a good 6 or 7 months to really think about this decision.

My lease ends on November 30th. Its going to be very bittersweet. I absolutely love my roommates Josephine and Alyssa. They have become my family. Living with Jo for about 2 years now and Alyssa a year and a half, I’ve learned to trust them with everything and be myself around them. I can look the crappiest and still feel comfortable with them. But as the date approaches faster and faster I’m both sad and happy to be moving. I’m going to miss these girls a whole bunch. Like I said before, I’ve been lonely lately. With this said, I’ve decided to move with my cousins for the next semester. I’m there basically everyday and even sleep there on the weekends. I need my family more than ever right now. Plus no more extra bills, and rent will definitely be a lot less. I am constantly broke, so this will be a great opportunity to save and save and save.

There will be many changes within the coming months, I just hope it’s all for the best.